I feel like I’ve done something wrong. Why else would she be behaving like this? One word answers, not even looking me in the eye. When she left we were best friends, and now we have nothing to say to each other. Have I changed? Or she? It was just a weekend, but everything is different now.

I just want someone to hug me and say “It’s okay. I care about you and everything will be okay.”

I love you.
I love you incredibly.
I love you for everything that is perfect about you.
And I love you for everything that is flawed about you.
I love you endlessly, no matter what and always will.

Thus it is the most painful and heart-wrenching feeling in the world knowing that you don’t feel the same way and likely never will.

I have been in love with you for as long as I can remember.

Normally I don’t like when people throw being in love around, but I can honestly say that I think I truly love you. My friend tried to help me get over you by pointing out all of your flaws, but to me they were all lovely.

After all this time I am convinced that there is nothing you could do to ever make me stop loving you and I am so scared that if I don’t act soon you’ll find some other girl and marry her before I have a chance to tell you this:
From the moment I first saw you I got this incredible feeling inside that I just could not express and since then there have been other guys in and out of my life but the feelings I have had for them all pale in comparison to the undying affection and passion I have for you. I think you are perfect for me and I love you with all of my heart and I can’t imagine being with anyone else in the world but you.

I think there is a chance that you may like me too, but I am afraid to tell you because I feel like if I don’t do it in the right way at the right time then I will ruin things forever and that thought makes my heart want to shrivel up and stop beating.

i think about my ex all the time.

The thought that I might never see you again scares me in a way that I cannot explain, even though we barely speak anymore.

When I broke up with him last year, I realized I could never be with someone as in love with the religious right as he is. We many things in common, but his blatant homophobia and deliberate ignorance when it came to discrepancies between the Bible and logic just pissed me off.

This year, you and I have become much better friends than we were last year. You have a lot in common with him, but you’re so much nicer, more fun to be around, and accepting of the fact that our opinions differ. I don’t feel pressure to conform to what you think, and I know that I’m falling in love with you.

You should know that every time we’re together, all I can think about is how beautiful your hair is and the perfection of your smile. Every time you laugh and use that nickname that never quite caught on, or your hand twitches a little as we watch a movie, I wonder if maybe I do have a chance after all, until I remind myself that it would go against everything you know.

I guess I should be grateful that I’ll never be in the position that I was with him of having to break up with you over these things because you’re a girl. I don’t know if I’ll ever figure out how, as Christians, our beliefs can have so many radical differences.
I’ll also never know how your hand would feel in mine.
but I suppose I’ll move on eventually.

i try too hard at everything. For once, i just want to be myself, but i don’t think anyone will love me if i am.

I am tired of feeling like shit compared to my best friend. She is the girl every boy falls in love with. Exhibit A: the guy I’ve been after for ages.

AllMyLoving is my best friend.